“I have so much chaos in my life, it’s become normal. You become used to it. you have to just relax, calm down, take a deep breath and try to see how you can make things work rather than complain about how they’re wrong.” ~Tom Welling
Last week, when restarting this blog, I thought that each Sunday I should have a theme to better document the changes within myself (and my family, and ultimately, my world) that I am hoping to make throughout the week. During the week I can write about whatever strikes, but Sundays are a time for reflection, both inward and outward. Hopefully I can use this day and time to stay focused on things I really want to accomplish.
Last week I decided to focus on “cutting the crap” out of my life. I planned to:
- Slowly, but surely, cut out processed foods (crap) for me and the family
- Stop having such a crappy attitude at home around my husband and kids and at school around my co-workers and “kids”
- Stop making crappy excuses for things I don’t want to do: going to the gym, cleaning the house, etc.
- Stop spending money on extraneous crap that I just don’t need: Starbucks coffee, more clothes that won’t fit in a month, eating out.
While I realize that these are ultimately life changes I am striving for, I feel like I did good for the first week. I definitely ate less processed foods and more fruits and veggies. I tried my hardest to stop spending money (on extraneous items) and stop making excuses when it’s time to make the hard decisions. The most challenging one for me, the one that will ultimately take the most time to work into my daily life and achieve, was changing my attitude.
I promise I’m trying, but my goodness it’s hard. I mean, seriously, look at the blog posts I wrote this week. They really don’t have a “positive” ring to them. I’m still trying to gossip less, build-up my relationship with my kids, and re-build my relationship with my husband. The secret is to not get discouraged. Rome wasn’t built in a day. The problem is I get to antsy and excited for everything to change RIGHT NOW that I tend to be a little…intense (to put it nicely).
This week is, while I’m continuing to work on last weeks items, I am also going to work on this: Trying to Calm the F*** Down! I get so worked up about all the little things in my life that I am sure I am missing out on some truly wonderful moments. I need to learn better to roll with the punches, dial down the control freak within myself, and just breath. I need to yell less, laugh more, and just try to enjoy living. Every day we are a little closer to the end of the world, not matter how much I freak out, or how much I worry. It’s inevitable. I might as well enjoy the ride while I can.
I realize this is all easier said then done, but knowing and planning is half the battle, right?
Sunday Musings: The Weekly Write-Up
- Week 1: Cut the Crap
- Week 2: Calm the F***Down