“When something bad happens you have three choices: let it define you, let it destroy you, or let it strengthen you.” ~Unknown
I actually had a pretty good day today. The day went smoothly. My kids ACTUALLY got math today. I got through everything in my lesson plan. I received a compliment from my principal. I finally felt like things at work were going well for once. I was excited that I was going to the gym after work. I was going to get in the run I missed this morning and get in some weights.
Then I got to the gym and realized I forgot my headphones (I was even going to steal some from lost and found, but there were none). And then I realized I didn’t have my running shoes and the shoes I was wearing were NOT conducive to running. I wound up putting in a lame 20 minutes on the elliptical and left.
I got home and the kids were in a mood from no nap. I only get them early in the morning or at night and they seem to ALWAYS be in a mood. I checked the weather and realized it is supposed to rain tomorrow which means no morning run and no workout at the gym due to no car. And at that moment, I just fell apart. I mean, like literally lost it. Big, fat crocodile tears, hiccuping sob lost it.
I didn’t get a real workout in. The stupid f*cking scale isn’t moving. The kids were screaming. I was hungry. I wasn’t going to meet my daily goals. In a nutshell, I hated everything.
After I was finally able to calm down (with a little help, thank you husband and prosecco) I decided to try my best to see the bright side of things. I was looking for any little glimmer of positive in my humdrum afternoon. And this is what I came up with:
1. It is OK to take a day off. It is OK to have an off day. It is OK to have a day where you do nothing and just relax.
2. Goals are goals. They are meant to be there in order to guide you and motivate you, but they are not the end all, be all of your existence. If you don’t meet your goal one day, it’s OK. You have tomorrow to make it happen. Work harder. Focus more. Improve upon yesterday. I have to stop basing my happiness on whether or not I meet my goals. That should not define me.
3. If you’re hungry, eat. I mean, if you are actually hungry. Don’t eat because you’re bored, or depressed, or angry. Eat if you need to, and if not, find an activity you can be excited about.
4. It takes work. Everything takes work. I am not going to run a half marathon tomorrow. I am not going to run a 5K tomorrow. But I can work towards that goal. Point it, I just have keep going. Even when I want to give up. Even when I think I am not getting anywhere. Even when I hate everything. I just HAVE TO KEEP GOING.
Maybe it’s good that I got so upset about missing a workout and not meeting my goals. It means I care. It means I am not ready to give up yet. It means this is important to me. And really, no matter what I do, the important thing is that I DO something.