“We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.” ~Buddha
I’m constantly psyching myself out and I don’t know why. I sure a lot of it has to do with not having high expectations. If I don’t think I can accomplish something and I DON’T accomplish it, I’m no worse off than I was before. On the other hand, if I was sure I could do it, and it turns out I can’t, I’m in for a world of disappointment.
I did and I didn’t want to go running today. It was freezing. As in, literally freezing. I haven’t run in the cold yet and all I wanted to do was sit in my house, snuggled up on my couch with the little ones watching a movie. Plus, according to my couch to 5K app, I am officially done with interval running as of today. No more breaks, no more walking. I know the other reason I didn’t want to run was because I assumed that I would not make it the whole 22 minutes. Sure, I had done 20 minutes once before, but that could have been a fluke. It was nicer weather, I ran on flat ground (no hills), etc. The list goes on and on. I just knew that I didn’t want to fail at this.
But I did want to run too. I love the feeling of accomplishment I get after I run and actually complete something. I love being able to really see how far I’d come beyond pants sizes and numbers on a scale. I love thinking back to when I first started couch to 5K months ago and quit so many times. Back to when I couldn’t even imagine running for 5 minutes at a time. Back to when thinking I could run a mile without stopping was a joke.
So, I made myself go out anyway. And you know what? I did it. I ran my 22 minutes. Sure, I was cold and uncomfortable. Sure I was painfully slow, but who the hell cares. I did it. And I know that I could do it again.
Sometimes, you just have to tell your self to shut up. Even if you are continually telling yourself you can’t do something, go out and do it anyway.
Miles accomplished in the 100 Mile Challenge: 71.25
Miles to go in the 100 Mile Challenge: 28.75
Weeks Left: 5