“Because that’s the thing, the day before your life changes forever, it’s just like any other day.”
Finally, finally, finally.
Saturdays are a dreaded day. The day I get on the scale. I was worried about it, to be honest. I was sick this week and didn’t really give it all my all. So, I screwed my eyes up tight, got on a peaked at the number. And it was lower. Not by a lot, but by 1.4 pounds. Which puts me at the lowest weight I’ve been since before Max was born. Which puts me at 2.4 measly pounds until I hit 50 pounds lost.
And it’s those 1.4 pounds that make me realize that I can do this. Since May my weight has been pretty consistent, gaining 1 or 2, losing 1 or 2, but never really going anywhere. Not that I could blame it. I wasn’t really doing anything to help it along. I’d work out here and there, eat healthy here and there, run here and there, but never enough to amount to anything, and never enough for it to stick.
After a rocky 6 months, I’m finally ready to get back on track…and I am getting back on track. I feel like within the past three weeks, something has really clicked. I’ve been able to stay on the healthy eating train. I’ve stopped drinking except for one week-end day or special occasions, and really, haven’t had the desire as much as before. I’ve been able stick to my workout plan for the most part and I’ve also been able to not get (too) upset the few times I have had to deviate from the plan for reasons beyond my control.
Overall the running is going well. I’m still slow, but it doesn’t bother me as much anymore. The speed will come. One of my January goals was to be up to running 3 miles by the end of January. Last Sunday I actually ran 4 (I still can’t believe it) so I’ve definitely met that goal! I had never run more than 2.5 before that and to say that I felt accomplished was a major understatement. I’m actually going to start incorporating some speed work on Saturdays with a friend (Hi Sara!). We found the most AMAZING running trail today and can’t wait to try it out again next week.
My other January goals are going well too. I’m halfway through two new books, have been soda free for 19 days, and have done quite a few things that I would normally have been scared to do. I’m excited to set some February goals soon. I’m hoping to get back on my one race a month kick, and maybe even rev it up to something past a 5K eventually.
The best part of all this? For the first time in a long time, I’m not waiting for the other shoe to drop. Usually, when things are going well, I tend to get scared and worried, believing that it’s only a matter of time before things start to turn sour again. I’m gaining confidence, learning to tune out the small stuff, and battling (and moving on from) past demons that were keeping me stagnant.
And let me tell you…it’s an absolutely amazing, wonderful feeling. I just can’t get enough.
I feel like I’m ready to battle whatever comes my way, whether it be big, or small, or nothing at all.
- March: Shamrock 5K
- April: Baltimore Color Run with Max (on his 5th birthday!!!)
- May: Color Run in Queens with the Maryland and Childhood BFFs!
- June: Charles Village 5K? Baltimore Women’s Classic 5K?
- July: Electric Run
- August: Trail Run at Boordy Vinyards?
- September: Color Me Rad
And of course…the 100 mile challenge
Miles accomplished in the 100 Mile Challenge: 97.95
Miles to go in the 100 Mile Challenge: 2.05