“Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.” ~Lucille Ball
I was feeling kind of low this morning. I went for a run and it was remarkably slow. I really felt defeated that I wasn’t back at the mile time I was before my knee injury. With the feeling of defeat came the feeling of self doubt. Why am I even doing this? I’m never going to be a “runner” so I should just stop now. This is the fastest it’s going to get so I should probably get used to it.
Then, after much agonizing and self doubt I decided to change my perspective. No, I’m not as fast as I used to be, but I’ve only gone for four short runs (in new shoes) since I began running again. No, I’m not as fast as I used to be, but we just got 3-4 inches of ice and snow and it’s been close to 0 degrees and I still went out twice (and didn’t kill myself on the ice). No, I’m not as fast as I used to be, but I’ve also been cross training like crazy (strength training, body weight exercises, additional cardio, yoga) so my body needs to catch up to what I’m doing to it. No, I’m not as fast as I used to be, but who the hell cares. I’m still out there. I’m running. And I feel wonderful.
And, really, I’ve accomplished quite a lot, even just since Christmas. I’ve stuck with my running and gym workout plan. I’ve completed every day of the plank, push-up, and squat challenges that I decided to work on this month, I’ve lost almost 5 pounds, and I’ve been eating quite a bit healthier and tracking it all on My Fitness Pal. Plus, today, I put on my new pair of compression running pants I got on clearance at Dicks. And they are an XL. And they fit. Yup, only one X in that size. This time last year, there were three.
The best part is, I have no doubt that I will be able to keep this up. Last year, had you told me I would love running and would be signing up for race after race, I would have told you you were crazy. But now…
It’s amazing how things change and how even the bad things in our life can lead us to something good.