So I’m going to list the good with the bad. The bad being it was a very rough day in the world of inner city teaching. My teaching team member was out today so It was just me and our ESOL para wrangling up two classes of kindergarteners. That mixed with 9 kids out due to the flu, a new student who definitely needs extra supervision, and one of our fifth graders and his mom being killed on Friday, led to a very somber and overwhelming Tuesday. I was supposed to go to the gym, but honestly I just don’t want to. I am mentally exhausted. And its not something the gym is going to bring me out of. I know after my run yesterday that my body (and mind and soul) need a rest so that’s what I’m doing.
The good news is that as much as I wanted to just throw in the towel and eat out tonight, I didn’t. I made a healthy dinner, tracked all my calories and still came in under my goal. The old me would have just thrown away the entire day, but the new me is going to take whatever victories she can make happen. Today it wasn’t exercise, it was healthy eating and self-care and that’s good enough for me.
The other day when it was snowing I made a deal with the universe. If we had a snow day I would run a 5K and clean the house.
I got my snow day. And I cleaned my house.
And then I went to the gym, fully invested in running this 5K today. And I made it about half way. And even that half way was tough.
As someone who ran a half marathon and trained for a marathon (yes, before quitting), not being able to really finish a 5K was beyond humbling. It may have even been a little humiliating.
But at the same time, I’m glad I stopped. I’m just getting back into running and I know if I would have kept going I would have been in pain tomorrow and then yet another workout would not get completed.
So I thought of a better way to appease the universe. Maybe I didn’t have to actually run the 5K today. Maybe I just had to commit to one…really commit.
So I did.
I registered for the Kelly Shamrock 5K in Baltimore. This will be the first race I’ve completed since the Turkey Trot when I was pregnant with Charlotte. Oh, I’ve signed up for a bunch since then, but I haven’t completed a single one.
This is also the first 5K I ever ran the entire race. Granted it was in 2014, but I’m seeing that as a sign.
It’s so, so easy to get bogged down with complaining, especially in this age where you can share your complaints with hundreds via social media.
It’s definitely harder to wake up and actively choose joy. Choose to find the little moments of happiness. Choose to take a different perspective. Choose to send these vibes out into the world instead of the negative ones. . I read somewhere that if you stress out or complain too much about something before it happens, you basically put yourself through it twice. How true is that?!?!
This week I’m going to work to actively choose joy. I’m going to work to leave the negativity behind.
After all, the only toxic we allow in 2019 is Toxic by Britney Spears.
So, I’m jumping on the bandwagon on week 3 of the The Mighty’s 52 Small Things. Each week The Mighty emails a new self-care challenge to be completed. These things are small: Set a goal, find gratitude in your daily life, etc. The idea behind it is instead of making grandiose New Year’s resolutions, you would make small attainable ones and never stop growing throughout the year.
This week’s challenge is about journalling. I constantly say I want to keep up with this blog better, but never actually do. I think this is the perfect way to reach that goal!
Here is this week’s challenge:
This week’s Small Thing is three-minute journaling. We’re challenging you to spend three minutes writing down your thoughts. At the end of the three minutes, you should jot down at least one thing you are grateful for. You don’t need to go out and buy a journal to do this — in fact, it’s probably better to try writing out your thoughts for a week before you make the investment. You can journal as a Thought on The Mighty with the hashtag #52SmallThings, on a random piece of paper, or on your phone — wherever you feel comfortable. If you journal privately, we’d love for you to still share what you’re grateful for each day by posting a Thought with the hashtag #52SmallThings!
Today I posted my challenge on Instagram, but I’m going to copy and past it over here as well!